2 months ago

I had seen this post "2 months ago" in sushi-fthr's blog......
Hmm.. come to think of it... i had left the "whatever" firm near to two months already.

I had always view myself as a loyal worker who will work for one firm and only one firm only till i die. But there are times where wise decision must be made. I always felt that my decision of leaving the "whatever" firm is correct as at up to now. Maybe i will regret my decision in future but at least i am contented for now.

It seems to many that i had decided to run away from problem instead of facing it. The truth is... yes!! I am running away... but it is not because i had not faced it before. It is just not in my control anymore whether things had take a very topsy turvy turn till i sometimes doubt my sanity in dealing it. Things clouded my mind and i had made a blunder out of myself for so long. It has suddenly struck me sometime in March 2009 that i had to make some very important decision. I had miraculously get myself another offer and i tendered the letter i had requested from sushi-fthr. Though my current job is not as high paying or high profile as the "whatever" firm, i still feel lucky being able to work in my current firm. It made me value the my current firm so much better after all the horrible scenes i had to go through in my ex-firm.

Who say big firms are good??!! You will never know after you get into one. The horrors of autocracy, politics, hierachy and conflicts had made me moved on without the feelings to even look back. Hmm... sounds serious right? It is like that. Maybe it is my fault of trying to get myself a good start in society. This proves to be a very wrong move as it seems that i had ruined the "start" and currently, i am nursing the wounds that it has caused.

Alas, i really hope that sushi-fthr will find the place where he thinks he can best be suited.

Belong...............

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

Words really can mean a lot of things. The above para was extracted from one of Fish Leong's song "Shu Yu" or "Belong".

I had always wonder the meaning of "belong". I had once felt that i belong to a particular place but time has proven that it is wrong. It seems now i am still finding the "place" for myself in this wide world.

Hmm.... ...